It just another day.

Indeed she's trying her best. Don't you just see the struggling throughout her days. Her smile is been faking for days. Months. Just to make everything seems fine even deep inside she's not. She's broken. Again. Like for the thousands time. She just can't bare any of this anymore. She's definitely exhausted. She never thought that she had to deal with this all over again. It just didn't come to an end.

After all this while , she finally feels alive again. She find someone who she thought she can put herself into. A person who's there for her when she needed him, Someone who's looking for her when he needed her. Yes, finally she feels that someone is tied to her,want her. Maybe not as much as she want but it just enough for her. But again, it is not as she thought it could be. She falls and turn around four times. Everytime she walked away, she always finds her way back. But this time, its her. Its she who looking for that guy who showed up every night, every morning. To her, it is fine as long as she can see his smile. As long as they were together. She's terrified if she confessing her true feelings, he will get away. He will leave her alone. She will lose a best friend. So she finally decided to bury all these feelings deep down where she can only find it when he shows that he's interested into her. Where she won't find it through her days so she won't be bothered. Days by days the feelings slowly fading but there are times where it hits her heart so badly that will make her cry. Unintentionally. She's fragile.

At that certain moment, he came. The one she used to love the most. The one who used to prove that love exist. Every time he walked in, he leave that one feeling. A feeling that hardly describe. Belonging. But it didn't last that long. He might said he would stay this time but she knows him better. She knows he will leave. And yes he did. Leave her hanging. Like a piece of toy where he collect when he want and throw it out when he doesn't need her anymore. The thing is, he keep apologizing but he will always screw everything up in the end.

Tonight, she's staring at the sky and wishing that everything will be fine at the end. Just fine. Like she always do. Like the old days.