Lately

Lately I've been dreaming. Part of me suddenly breathe again. They came back like I used to be. The feelings of being accepted and treated nicely again. Its a good thing you know. You finally can move forward instead of turning back all over again. This time its real. Its real that I have drive myself put. Way out from my dark spaces and find my comfort zone. Its where everybody smile for the truth and forget all the sadness. Not for awhile. Its for the rest of your life. Its a place where you push every fucking people who tried to messed up with your life and also those who already did that without thinking about your damn feelings. Well have you ever think how painful when someone you trust just rip off your heart after you've been taking care of their feelings with all of your hope that they will do the same to you? It takes a long long time to recover. And it is buried deep down in your heart. Where it makes you keep aware with the world. Where it makes you hate people around. And people gonna call you arrogant . But it makes your life even safe . To protect yourself from having the same situation. Thats the whole reason from all these behavior. I never felt safer than this. Hope it last longer.