Lately

Lately I've been dreaming. Part of me suddenly breathe again. They came back like I used to be. The feelings of being accepted and treated nicely again. Its a good thing you know. You finally can move forward instead of turning back all over again. This time its real. Its real that I have drive myself put. Way out from my dark spaces and find my comfort zone. Its where everybody smile for the truth and forget all the sadness. Not for awhile. Its for the rest of your life. Its a place where you push every fucking people who tried to messed up with your life and also those who already did that without thinking about your damn feelings. Well have you ever think how painful when someone you trust just rip off your heart after you've been taking care of their feelings with all of your hope that they will do the same to you? It takes a long long time to recover. And it is buried deep down in your heart. Where it makes you keep aware with the world. Where it makes you hate people around. And people gonna call you arrogant . But it makes your life even safe . To protect yourself from having the same situation. Thats the whole reason from all these behavior. I never felt safer than this. Hope it last longer.

Life.

Its been awhile after my last post. Well , recently I had this kind of feelings to write back. To tell people what I want to tell. It might be one of my dreams or maybe it one of my days or maybe one of my nightmares or maybe one of my experiences. Please don't take any charge on my post(unless it is appoint to you) . Ya you , the reason I became this girl. The cold heart kind of girl who doesn't give a shit to people anymore. Who doesn't give a damn about others who I used to be there for you guys or maybe we didn't met yet. I am sorry if I am a little bit harsh. But that's life is all about. It sucks. Life is hard. To those who really want to grow up so quick , just pray that a miracle hit your life.
Because the older you get , the harder your days would be.
EXPECT the unexpected.
Hope will KILLS you.
Trust TEAR your heart apart.
True love really HARD to find.
Real friends exists in a SMALL circle.
People going to take you for granted. EVEN YOUR BEST FRIEND
People are going to FORGET you no matter how much you have done for them.
You CANNOT tell people how you really feel.
People will CHANGE once they met the others (Either it is a boy or even a girl)
People ONLY look for you when they need something from you
Your mind ACCIDENTALLY thoughts of things you never thought you gonna think when you are in a bad day.
Take CHANCES while you still can , before you regret.
Tell people that you LOVE them , at least you have done your part.
Your plans ALWAYS change through out the days you have experienced.
You will give up A LOT but you gonna find your strength soon.
You are NOT going to be the old you once you've been hurt.
You FINALLY realize you cared about the wrong person.
Others feelings DOESN'T matter as yours.
Rewards your own self not your BELOVED ones.
BELIEVE yourself. That is first and foremost.

Good luck on dealing your days. even it is hard as hell. Just keep believe in yourself and it will be better. Find the right one and keep it. Keep it between you guys only. And smile even you had a bad day.